I can help you understand some of the baffling emotions you may have been experiencing.
What is covert emotional abuse?
It does not leave any visible bruises or scars. Often it is a confusing, hidden and shameful experience. It can happen to anyone.
Covert abusers will often target intelligent, caring, warm-hearted individuals who try hard to make relationships work.
Victims can have great careers, plenty of friends and a solid income.
These may also the people less likely to admit what has happened to them as the shock, confusion and shame is too overwhelming. “How could this happen to me?”
In the latest Crime Survey in the UK, 83% of partner abuse was not reported to the police. Most people who experience covert abuse do not know what they experiencing, many think the problems they are experiencing are their fault.
The effects of covert abuse (such as Gaslighting) are often profoundly destructive and can devastate the sense of self, our physical well-being and often result in depression and post-traumatic stress symptoms.
What does covert abuse look like?
Some examples might be:
- Putting down what’s important to you
- Criticising your loved ones
- Ruining or being absent at important events
- Ignoring you when you’re speaking
- Making you the butt of hurtful jokes
- Micromanaging or jealously
- Ruining your belongings (“accidentally”)
- Not backing you up in public
Emotional abuse can happen in friendships, romantic relationships, within families, in the workplace and in religious or spiritual communities.
- If you feel isolated, confused, drained, powerless and joyless you may be experiencing emotional abuse
- If you are controlled, disparaged, punished, ridiculed and criticised you may be experiencing emotional abuse.
- If you live your life walking on eggshells in order not to experience intense rage or criticism. You may be experiencing emotional abuse
- If cruel, barbed comments are wrapped up in ‘jokes’ and you are humiliated publicly you may be experiencing emotional abuse.
- If you are always referred to with insulting ‘pet names’ that make you uncomfortable, it is likely you are experiencing emotional abuse.
- If you are unable to express your true feelings or have to constantly change your behaviour to please someone it is likely you are experiencing emotional abuse.
- If you are exhausted, confused and miserable trying to make someone happy, who, no matter what you do, is never happy it is likely you are experiencing emotional abuse
- Or if there are brief glimpses of kindness (that feel like intense relief) before the emotional pain or isolation returns. It is likely you are experiencing emotional abuse.
- If your body is breaking down (pain, inflammation, exhuastion, immune disregulation) and you don’t really know why, you may be experiencing emotinal abuse
For the most part, the nature of emotional abuse is misunderstood by society, with many (including victims) not really understanding exactly what it is and what is happening to them.
The biggest problem many survivors face is being believed or taken seriously. We often think that everyone argues, worries about their relationships or has problems in life,…right?
It is very common for survivors to have been carefully ‘drip fed’ abuse over many years.
Often targets think that the draining, painful relationship they are experiencing is their fault, that, in fact ‘everything’ is their fault. If only they could just try a little harder to change themselves, then everything would be ok….and the painful cycle continues.
Covert Abuse and Physical Wellbeing
Often targets of this type of abuse are disgnosed with autoimmune dysfunction or chronic pain. This could be attributed to the long term exposure to cortisol and adrenaline in their systems.
When we live life walking on eggshells it takes its toll on our physiology. We don’t run out of cortisol – we just make more of it and the body starts to break down. This causes inflammation, which causes pain or in severe cases immune system dysfunction.
Part of the recovery journey from emotional abuse is nervous system regulation. For more information about how to help the body to become more regulated explore my work with Trauma Release (TRE)
For many, the first, and challenging step, is to acknowledge that something is wrong.
Often the word ‘abuse’ is too shameful to admit, or is something that only happens to ‘other people’.
It is a common misconception that ‘weak’ people are targeted for abuse.
It is often the reverse, and nothing to do with weakness of character, lack of intelligence or spirit.
About Me
My way of working is psychodynamic in nature and I work with emotions, thoughts and sensations. This helps us find a deeper understanding of ourselves, including the aspects or hidden parts that we are not always conscious of.
As a survivor of CPTSD and narcissistic emotional abuse, I understand how important it is to feel safe. From safety, we can move on to find peace. I hope to guide all my clients to find new ways to move on with the physical and emotional release.
I Can Help
If this is your story and you would like to get in touch to discuss your needs or to understand more about emotional abuse, please get in touch for a free 30-minute consultation
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